Intro

When it all started I never thought this is what it would turn out to be. I was just some girl and in an instant my whole life changed. I can remember every moment it happened. I can still feel my heart race and a smirk run across my face. When it all started I didn't know what I wanted but I do now.

This is my journey to finding love in plenty of wrong places but I honestly hope that one day it will help someone, maybe even myself. At the end of the day, I know that I love God, my family and myself. That's enough for me.

I'd almost prefer that I never met you. Then I wouldn't have to worry about what I wish I could have done, should have done, would have done. Because if I'm honest about it all--It was always about you. And that's just how I have always been. I always think too much. I say too much. I give too much. My mind, heart and complete being moves too fast for my own good. When you're with me, I will ruin you. You will forever wonder if I am thinking of you too. And I will. I have. So until the aches of this emptiness is filled by the next person who lets my heart leap at the sound of a simple "hello," I will be here. I'm thinking of you.